My fine is $465.60

I was sent this in an email today and I thought that it would be fun / embarrassing to post this instead of emailing it to a select group. My fine is high, but the person who sent it to me had a fine of $820.60. I feel good about myself after that! I want you, dear readers, to list your fines in the comments.

Here’s how it works: You don’t have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. And NO, it is not PER incident (otherwise, some of us would have totals more than the national debt).

Smoked pot — $10
Did acid — $5
Ever had sex at church — $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you — $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace — $25
Had sex for money — $100
Vandalized something — $20
Had sex on your parents’ bed — $10
Beat up someone — $20
Been jumped — $10
Crossed dressed — $10
Given money to stripper — $25
Been in love with a stripper — $20
Kissed some one who’s name you didn’t know — $0.10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work — $15
Ever drive drunk — $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk — $50
Used toys while having sex — $30
Got drunk, passed out and don’t remember the night before — $20
Went skinny dipping — $5
Had sex in a pool — $20
Kissed someone of the same sex — $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex — $20
Cheated on your significant other — $10
Masturbated — $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend — $20
Done oral — $5
Got oral — $5
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving — $25
Stole something — $10
Had sex with someone in jail — $25
Made a nasty home video — $15
Had a threesome — $50
Had sex in the wild — $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex — $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars — $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older — $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 — $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time — $50
Said you love someone but didn’t mean it — $25
Went streaking — $5
Went streaking in broad daylight — $15
Been arrested — $5
Spent time in jail — $15
Peed in the pool — $0.50
Played spin the bottle — $5
Done something you regret — $20
Had sex with your best friend — $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work — $25
Had anal sex — $80
Lied to your mate — $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good — $25

Tally it up and Title it…”My Fine Is…”

The Arcade Fire

Watch Saturday Night Live tonight. Really, Turn on your tv right now. The Arcade Fire are blowing minds right this second, as they perform.


WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!?! Don't you want your mind blown? :-)

Random thought...

... Do you ever wish that it rained skittles?

I do.

I disappeared...

"Like I said, disappearances happen. Pains go phantom. Blood stops running and people, people fade away. There's more I have to say, so much more, but... I disappeared." - Meredith Grey

Last Thursday saw Meredith of "Grey's Anatomy" drown, and presumably, die. That pretty much sums up what I have done for the last six weeks. I went under. I could see the water above and the water below. I chose to sink.

I have had this self-pity and loathing and hate for myself...and for what reason? I am stumbling through this life, while others are celebrating and cheering their daily victories. I can choose to continue to sink, to drown, or I can choose to come out of this strange dark place.

Why choose to come to the surface? I have friends and family who love me (At least they say they do) But I have been a terrible friend...I was rescued in January by Kimberly, and How do I repay her? I don't call or write or visit in a month! I was loved by Janelle and I ignored her emails. I was comforted by Darren in a time of need, and just today, I beat him up for talking to his ex-boyfriend (who I think he should avoid)...Do I deserve any of these people? (Probably not.)

I am tired of being tired. I am Tired of being in the dark. I am tired of complaining.

I am tired of disappearing. No more.

People, today was Mardi Gras. A celebration of indulgence to counter a period of fasting. My "Lenten preparedness" is going to be slightly different than previous years. I think that I'm going to not cut so much out or abstain during Lent, I'm going to indulge. I will force myself upon people, and come up for air. I will indulge in my baby girl Kailey's smiles, I will take crazy long walks across the bridge with the dog, I will go to Calories for cheesecake with Janelle, and we might eat a whole cake together, but then I will go to the Gym with Becky (please come to the gym with me!!!) and I will make all of those cheesecakes vanish into THIN air!

There is so much more that I have to say, and I will say it. I cannot allow the person I have become to disappear. I like me. I like being opinionated. I like working in a "crappy retail job". I like hating George Bush. I like country music and screamo punk too. I like being who I am and I refuse to disappear.

Fuck That Noise!