#88 - X365

Tyler -

T-Pain, bro, What's Up!!!

I had SOOOOO much fun playing Cupid and doing everything in my power to set you and Lisa up. I was talking you up to her and talking her up to you. I planted seeds every where I could! It was super to finally, after months of you saying, "gee, She looks cute today!", to have you tell me you had asked her to a movie!!!

I want your first baby named after me!

You are welcome!!!

#87 - X365

Carmody W. -

My favorite memory of you is making radio stations on our old 2 deck ghettoblaster. Remember WFUZZ Radio Fuzz Chzhhhssshkkkaakkhz??? Haha!

We would chat and do fake weather and sports scores, and then have a song cued up on the other deck, hit play and record it all. Kids these days with their Digital players are never going to have the joy of making mix tapes. Sure, they can burn a disc, but it's not the same :-)

Then there was the time that we dyed our hair with Kool-aid. For the record, my bedroom wall was stained with cherry Kool-aid until my sister painted the wall five years later! Haha!

You were such a cool kid, so fun and youthful. We never went "hoodlum". When you went off to that Private high school, I think our group lost a good thing in you. I hope you have a fantastic life overseas, and I hope we can have a pint someday and reminisce in person.

#86 - X365

Renea M. -

You were one of my first friends ever. We lived across the street from each other for the first ten or so years of our lives. You were my first sleepover (not counting Grandma and Grandpa's) and I still remember your older brothers bugging us all night. I can't remember if I made it the night or not... :-)

One of my favorite memories involves the 1988 Calgary Winter Olympics. We were watching the news or something at your house and it had a replay of Elizabeth Manley's Silver Medal Performance. I told your brother, "she is going to get a medal" and he said basically, no way. I told him, I'd bet him "a Hundred Bucks". I was right, and they showed her getting her medal, and he said he was going to buck me like a horse, 100 times... Sigh, I was soooo Pissed!!! I wanted my Hundred Dollars!!! hahaha!

#85 - X365

Tiffany W.B. -

You are like a teeny little pixie woman! You are always sunshine and rainbows, and I mean that with absolute love and respect! You are the ultimate glass-half-full kinda gal.

I really wish I could be more like you in that way. You are super easy to talk to, and your undeniable love for Capital G-O-D is so completely unwavering. I wish that I could have that kind of faith in anything.

There is no one I would ever want to watch The O.C. with other than you too!!! hahaha!

You are such an inspiration to me. I try to be like you in so many ways and I fail, because there is only one you!

#84 - X365

Katrina L -

Hey Ms San Diego! What a shocker! You move to the States for a guy and end up living a Happily Ever After!!

You are a super cool chickie who is always down for a party. You are a good time, all the time! I am so happy to hear that you are really, truly happy! (and I guess you and your new constitutional right to bear arms are a match made in Gun Lover Heaven!!!

I will miss watching you shoot the F out of a target at the Range :-)

Love You!

#83 - X365

Leanne S -

Hey Leanne!!! You are such a blast to work with. You make Sparks even more fun. For all the sucky parents that we sometimes have to work with, you make going back every week totally worth it! You are the only person that would think to bring a bottle of wine to a sleepover for the Grown-ups, and Trust me, it was the right decision!!! Hahaha!

I love your creativity and your sheer genius for finding crafts and things, because we both know that I am horrible at crafty things... :-)

I am so happy to spend my "hour a week" with you, and "our Girls!"!!!

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Nancy L. -

You are growing into such a strong, confident woman, it is a beautiful thing.

I met you when you were a loud, and abrasive 14 year old girl. I am glad to say that you are a much more mature 19 now! :-) Keep up with the momentum. Move out, find your own space and become your own woman. Your Mom already exists, you don't need to be a carbon copy of her. You are wonderful on your own!!!

Please know how great I think you are! I am happy to be one of your mentors, (although, I'm not sure how good an example I'm setting these days. Shooters are not a career path!!! haha!)

#81 - X365

Jenn J.-

We met in 2002, at Roots, and became fast friends. You make like a super quiet, shy, good girl, but underneath is a rock goddess who is way more wild and crazy than she would ever let on! How you ever manage to keep that Good Girl Veneer is a mystery to me :-)

You are single but you are DYING to have a boyfriend. Please, don't rush into anything that could be regretted. I don't want you to be ruined by some dumb boy. Your heart is so big. You deserve the best and I hope that it finds you very soon!

#80 - X365

Hank L. - You are my favorite Queen!

Your drag alter ego looks better in a dress than I do. That is soooo unfair! Why do boys make a better girl than I????

I can vividly see you and I performing for each other in the green house, You doing scenes from the Music Man, and I doing Maria from West Side Story... We were sooo deluded!

I am glad you are back on Saskatchewan soil and we can have a good time together once again!

Cheater Blog post AKA another Meme from Tara

FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things
about your friends, and let them learn 50 things
about you!

1) Do you like blue cheese? Nope.

2) Have you ever smoked heroin? Nope

3) Do you own a gun? No

4) Your favorite song? Seriously, Just one... Strange & beautiful by Aqualung (just for today though... it will change in an hour...)

5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? no

6) What do you think about hot dogs? Ok on the BBQ, but never just boiled! EEEWWW!

7) Favorite Christmas song? I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus. (Mommy and I are both sexually attracted to men who love giving gifts... :-)

8) Can you do push ups? Yes, Thank you Mawson Fitness!

9) What's your favorite piece of jewelry? I wear so little, I guess My big hoop earrings.

10) Favorite hobby? Reading six books at once.

11) Do you have A.D.D.? Do I have A..... Look, a butterfly!

12) What's one trait that you hate about yourself? I am pessamistic.

13) Middle name? Lynn

14) Name three thoughts at this exact moment? 1) Tara is a tard for sending me this, she knows I will fill it out and send it along to others, 2) This is going on my Blog... Yeah, Lazy blog post coming up! 3) What should I make for lunch, I'm hungry.

15) Name three things you bought yesterday? Paid my rent, black patent leather mary jane heels, and a sub for lunch.

16) Name three drinks you regularly drink. Diet Dr. Pepper, Diet Pepsi and Starbucks Venti Caramel Macchiato, skinny, half sweet, no whip, extra hot, extra shot! ( Phew, say that 5 times fast!)

17) Current worry right now? Money, always money with my shoe fetish!

18) Current hate right now? My monitor is buzzing... I think it is going to die!

19) Where would you like to go? To NYC.

20) Name three people who will complete this? I hope that one person will, but I doubt it... :-)

21) Do you own slippers? Nope.

22) What shirt are you wearing? Black t-shirt that I wore to bed.

23) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Hells Yeah! Soooo Sexy!

24) Can you whistle? Yes, a little.

25) Favorite color(s)? Blue.

26) What songs do you sing in the shower? Britney Spears stuff, Regina Spektor That Time, Lots of things really...

27) Would you be a pirate? No, Pirating is wrong... Go to HMV and just get a discount from me :-)

28) Favorite girl's name(s). Alexandra, Katherine (I'm gonna name my daughter that, and shorten it to Kat then I can call her Kitty!)

29) Favorite boy's name(s). I dunno... I like Nicholas the more I say it... It sounds smart. Liam is a nice name too.

30) What's in your pocket right now? Lint.

31) Last thing that made you laugh? Becky Gunn AKA "Stabby" telling me the story of how she got her ex-boy to give her the money he owed her.

32) Worst injury you've ever had? Fractured Tailbone.

33) Do you love where you live? J'adore this house!

34) How many TVs do you have in your house? Two, and a b&w tv at my parents still...

35) Who is your loudest friend? I am my loudest friend :-) Nicholas ranks up there with his booming laugh.

36) How many dogs do you have? Technically I still own half of Tika, so 1/2 dog.

37) Does someone have a crush on you? I think so... (RUSS!!!) :-)

38) What is your favorite book? Tie: LAMB: The Gospel According to Biff, Christ's Childhood Pal by Chris Moore and Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs by Chuck Klosterman

39) What is your favorite Candy? Sour Soothers

40) Favorite Sports Team? Hockey: Oilers, CFL: Riders, of course, NFL: Green Bay, Nascar: Kevin Harvick #29, Hate baseball and Basketball

41) What song do you want played at your funeral? Black Swan by Thom York :-)

42) What were you doing 12 AM last night? Making out with Russ.

43) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? It's too Fucking Early!

44) Which way do you pull your toilet paper? Over the top.

45) What's your favorite cereal? I guess Rice Crispies or Corn Flakes.

46) What did you dream about last night? Having a baby. I'm hormonal and it's all I can think about!

47) Do you snore? I think so.

48) Can you drink from the other side of the glass? If you turn it, yes?

49) Favorite movie? Juno.

50) Have you ever been in trouble with the law? Umm Technically, yes. But was I ever caught? NOPE!

We've got these Chains, hanging around our necks...

I'm sitting here at 2:30 in the morning, Drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper (wishing I had some Amaretto for it) and listening to a man snore, and I'm thinking "How did I get here?".

I mean, I know how I got here... I live here. What I mean is, six months ago I was wondering how I was going to remember to brush my teeth, how I was going to remember to smile, how I was going to remember how to live... My heart ached with each thought, each breath, each motion.

Now, I am starting again, VERY HESITANTLY, I must say, but I am wondering and questioning each move I make to the extent that I am not sure why I am doing this again. It's not that he's a bad guy, or that he deserves to be raked over the coals, but there is this GIANT pink elephant in the room and no one is even noticing it.

I am so scared of making the same mistakes again that I was pushing him away before anything even started. That was beyond unfair to him, I know... But I am so terrified of hurting him. I was talking to a friend about this and she told me that I have to give him a chance. I mean, I want to and I am, but I am so scared. I'm scared of him hurting me, but more of me being super defensive and ruining what I have (or could have) with him.

I don't remember being scared when I started my other relationships. I was excited and happy. It feels like, I let myself forget about everything that happened in 2007 and I get feeling really good, and then something snaps me back and I put up a wall again.

I hope that My heart continues to heal so that I can really love again...

Tonight, He asked me what my dreams are. I replied with "I don't have dreams anymore, they are all nightmares." So he asked again, "No, Really. What are your dreams? What do you want more than anything?" I said, "Why?"

He said, "Because I want to make them come true."

And I am pushing this away?!?!?