This is officially the last post ever from Kim's

I'm all packed up and ready to go.

I cannot believe how much stuff I have here at Kim and Curtis'. I mean, how much shit have I dragged in here since I moved in? I must have bought a whole new suitcase worth of clothes and shoes, because I had to borrow 3 suitcases to move out of here!

I made a Facebook group to sucker, er I mean, to ask my friends to help me move out. I got a good response so this should go really well.

We're loading up the trucks on Sunday and moving me clear across the city. I have a really nice townhouse in Lawson Heights. I'm literally on the river. It will be amazing this spring for me to go and jog along the river. I am actually feeling the motivation to do so too :-)

I'm actually dreading this move though. Of course moving itself really sucks, but there is more than the physical move that I'm dreading. There's the whole "last step to independence" thing too. I mean, this is going to be it. After this, I am on my own completely. There is no more leaning on my friends. This is all me now baby!

If I fail, if I succeed, it all depends on THIS GIRL! and I mean, I know I can do it. I lived on my own, without a man, before but I was 21... It was WAYYYY easier then. Now I know that the world is out to get me and that I have a target on my back. I feel all used up. This is really going to be a hard month. Oh, and btw, I won't have internet for a while, so my posts are going to be written, and then posted later, so expect some delays...

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David K. - I remember one thing about you that is specific to you and only you. Here goes. I remember, once in Gravelbourg, we went to a movie, and you tried to hold my hand. I was so nervous that you were going to hold my hand, that I didn't watch the movie or even pay attention to what was going on around me.

The person beside me had their drink resting on the arm of the seat between us, and I then in my nervousness, spilled that drink on myself and them, which caused me to jump up and spill your drink on you.

Worst date ever, in the history of the Gaiety Theater.

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Arun G. - You were one of the craziest things I have ever done in my whole life.

I can't really get in to details here, (Because they were DIRTY!!!) , but you were a fun week in a crazy time in my life. Thank you for the memories.

Just seeing your name here now for the rest of eternity, or until the internet becomes obsolete, will always remind me that I am a woman who has many talents...drinking and proper judgment are not two of them though :-)

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Tarren S. - Or as you are otherwise known to a select few : Saleskta!

I met you at work and I fell in love with you immediately. You are smart and funny, a rare combination in a really good-looking woman :-) I know that things are touchy right now with your boy, but keep hanging in there. If it's meant to be, it will work itself out. I love that you are committed to school with the intensity that you have right now. I know your future is going to be amazing.

Remember me when you run a Fortune 500 company someday and I need a great paying job, Hint, Hint...

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Michael T. - My Baby Brother!!! You are literally the baby of our family. I am excited to see you becoming a grown-up. You have a great work ethic for a 17 year old. I cannot believe the shifts that you put in at the Co-Op and then you still get amazing grades and you are a star athlete... Am I boasting about my baby brother??? Maybe just a little... :-)

You seriously are amazing kiddo. I hope that you know how much I seroiusly am saddened by the act that you grew up without me around to see it. I wish that we were closer, but I mean I get that I'm 10 years older than you and I'm a girl, so you aren't going to tell me all of your secrets. I hope that you can tell me some of them though! :-)

I love you Kiddo! Happy 17th Birthday!

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Roberta A. - You are one wild woman who I wish I had spent more time working with. I hear the stories of your escapades...(Eddie anyone???) and I wish I had been there to see them first hand :-)

You seem like a really loyal friend to the girls at work. They all have amazing things to say about you. I wish that I had joined the team sooner, to be a part of that group too. It made me a little jealous of y'all when I was on the outside looking in. You have an amazing spirit that shows in your relationships with the people you call friends. I am just glad to be in on the list! Thanks for letting me be a small part of it!

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Christine O. - My Baby sister! You were the cutest of us girls, and I think you still are! I am truly pleased every time I see you, because you are always striving to make yourself a better person.

I think you are perfect the way you are! I love you more than you know and I am happy that you and Dave found each other. I am really kind of jealous, actually. You know what you want and you make it happen. You did it with David, you did it with school and you are doing it with your weight.

You have self-control that I can not seem to find... I love that you lecture me, and psychoanalyze me all the time. You are supposed to be getting advice from your big sister, not giving it to her :-)

Today, as you turn 24, all I can say is that I love you, I miss you, and I am So happy that you are my sister!

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Robin K. - You are one of my favorite men in uniform EVER!

You are funny, and kinky. That's a great combination in my books :-) I used to really look forward to our breakfasts together with Krista in the good old Midtown Staff Room AKA the underground dungeon. That lunchroom was such a dank pit. I could count on you having a nap when I would walk in there at quarter to eight in the morning.

Thanks for the lessons on the shortcuts through the mall and the grounds. You know, I could break into the mall several different ways now, thanks to you :-)

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Steven H. - You were the nicest person I have ever met. Your family doesn't deserve you. You are quiet, polite, respectful, controlled and articulate...Are you sure that you are related to your family??? :-) Joking aside, you are a great guy, and I hope that I can still see you occasionally even after this whole thing between me and Travis is worked out.

I will never forget the first night I met you. It was the night that we drove to Biggar through that horrible storm to get to your Dad. You guys all said your goodbyes and then he passed away. I was pretty shocked that your family would include me in something so private and personal.

I was honored to be with you all and I will always hold a special place for you in my heart Steven, You are like a little Brother to me. I hope that you are staying out of trouble. Keep up on that dart game. You need to beat those cousins of yours more often :-) And keep your eye on You-know-Who for me. Make sure that he doesn't drink too much, too often...I still worry about him.

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Janelle S. - You were the youngest of an all-girl household, so you seemed to exude beauty and confidence all through your junior high and high school days. I was super jealous of you, because I cannot think of a single day when you looked like crap.

I mean, you were always put together. You had this aura of womanhood long before I knew what that would mean. You were not ever snobby or 'posh' about it, because you were sure able to tomboy it up with the best of them, but you acted in a manner that was becoming of a lady most of the time.

Reading this over, it sounds like I'm saying that you were some princess, but I don't mean it like that. I guess you just had a sense of style and grace that I think was beyond your years and you carried yourself well. I wish that I had your poise when I was 16.

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Kay S. - You are a firecracker! I don't actually know you, but we are online friends from WAAAAAAYY back (at least it feels like it :-)

I wish that I lived closer to Winterpeg, so that we could hang out and party together. You really seem like a cool chick, and I'm really sorry that your true love is so far from where you are right now. You deserve all of the happiness in the world. Keep blogging and facebooking, so that I can keep tabs on you. Come to S'toon again and we can hook up and do things to Panko that will make him blush :-)

#30 - X365

Cierra A. - Just admit it. Everyone in the store knows that you were the one who took the money.
If you had just come clean, or at least paid for a couple of rounds of drinks that night at O'shay's, we might not have been so pissed at you.

You know, we got raked over the coals, because the cash was gone, and we were left there looking like idiots, because we didn't do bag checks on your last day. How suspicious did it look that you were the one who stole the money? I hope that you enjoyed buying whatever it was that you did. Was it a Playstation? Was it games? Was it weed? I'll never know. But you do. So just admit it. Clear your conscience.

#29 - X365

Tiffany H. - I still cannot believe that you drove an hour each direction every day to go to School with us. I mean, you had Moose Jaw Pallisar Campus right there! You were CRAZY!!! There were some serious storms that year that Bonnie and I didn't even drive through and we were only going across town!

I wish you had been closer that year, I mean, we hardly got to know you. You didn't get to hang out with us at Jason & Bonnie's, or at Chris, Brent & My place ever. You were this mysterious classmate that every now and again would throw out some crazy comment or make a jab at someone.

I liked you and I hope that you are doing really well now.

#28 - X365

Tyler F. - I met you through Curtis and Allan. You were always the quiet one, but like they say, it's the quiet ones that you have to look out for the most...

I liked you, you liked Kim and she liked Curtis... We were set to become a great Shakspearian comedy... I like the way things turned out though. I guess when you are 20, you really don't know what you really want after all.

You have always been kind and patient, and you make a great Godfather to my baby girl. I know that someday you are going to have loads of crazy babies with Kristen :-) They are going to break hearts, just like you did.

#27 - X365

Maygen K. - Here's to one of the Sexiest Canadian Musicians that I personally know. (not that I know anyone else who is on that list...Although I would like to know Peter Elkas, if you know what I mean :-)

You are a genuine person. I liked you from the moment I met you. I am glad that we got to spend time together with our involvment in Girl Guides. You are AMAZING with the girls. You have the patience of a saint.

I Love your style. You have an amazing eye for detail. Plus, you look fantastic in everything you wear :-) I am bringing you out the next time I go down a size. You, me, a mall, and My credit card equals one hot Chickie!!!

I hope that you win big in this year's Bucky Awards. Good luck, and I've been getting everyone to vote for you!

#26 - X365

Cooper S. - You are one of my coolest cousins EVER!!!


If we weren't related, I would still want to be your friend. You are a wonderful spirit. You treat everyone in your life so well. Your heart is three sizes to big, I swear. You joined the military to do good things for this world, and while I wasn't really happy with that decision for my own personal reasons, I support you whole heartedly. I know that you will make this world an amazing place to live.


I want you to know that I worry about you when I hear that you are out on your missions, of course we all do, but I want you to be home, in Regina, safe and sound.


I miss you and I'm gonna Facebook message you right now because I just wanna talk to you.

#25 - X365

Bre D. - You strolled into my life because of that "Hoodke" kid, and have helped make it more fun. Girl, you like to cause trouble as much as I do and it kills me that we don't ever do it!!!

Let's watch some more L Word and get inspired to have some fun on our next girl's night out tee hee hee!

You make the best sandwiches ever and I wanna make one for you sometime... if you know what I mean ;-)

(yeah, I'm kinda dirty like that!)

I have gone too far.

It's no secret. I have been trying to lose weight. I feel that I have had some success. I admittedly have not been doing it totally right.

I have been excersising, and eating better things for me than I used to, but I have also NOT been eating. I have been joking with people that, yes, I have anorexia, but it is controlled. I am eating things sometimes, but I have gone for a day or two and only consumed coffee and gum.


Last week, I ate because I was feeling sad, and lonely and weird and bored. I ate and I ate and I ate. I ate until I felt sick. Then I went to the bathroom and I threw up. I felt so good. It felt freeing as It happened. Then I looked at myself as I brushed my teeth and I was so disgusted with myself that I almost was sick again. I sat on the bathroom floor and cried.

Why am I so unhappy with my appearance that I would do this to myself? I see nothing wrong with skipping meals, and I thought that only crazy people would start binging and purging. I hate myself so much right now. Plus, I may have lost a friend yesterday, because I have such a shitty perception of my self that I may have pushed a great person away...

I guess that I am officially crazy now. Why can't I be happy with me as I am?

#24 - X365

Levi S. - So, I met you through a friend / Co-worker and I immediately liked you. You are smart and well-read and handsome. I thouroughly look forward to any chance I get to see you in hopes of picking your brain on music stuff, but that doesn't happen nearly as often as I would like.

You are an uber talented musician. I adore both of your projects. Did you know that 'Aurora Boreaopus' is my favorite song of all time? Ever? Of all of the songs in the world? The whole world?

You probably didn't know that. But now I guess you do.

Last year at my very first live Volcanoless show (September 2006), I really got to see your passion for the music come through. My friend, no one could make a box of KD into a musical instrument as well as you did that night :-) Bravo for finding your passion and making it into your reality. I am your biggest fan and I support you and the boys (and Elsa too :-) all the way! Someday, when you are super famous, promise me an autograph and a hug when I stand in a line overnight somewhere to see you again!

"The rain falls. We crash into the waves. This glorious night explodes into glass. The way we were... well we can't avoid this crash. We watch the stars. A gentle dance that steals your breath. A thief in the night. We blame it all on but we can't wait for morning so we send a call for light. A long way down. The way we were well we can't. It's a long way down." - 'Aurora Boreaopus' - From Chimpan-a to Chimpan-z

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Amanda S. - We met in Grade 1. I stole your strawberry eraser and you told the teacher. I got in trouble and then we SOMEHOW (?!?!?!) became friends.

I loved your family. You adopted me on weekends. What was with me and you farm friends? I loved heading out to the pastures and hanging out with the cows. I'm a dork, I know. :-)

You always had this innocence about you. I will never forget having to explain what a dildo was after we watched the Brad Pitt movie Seven... Neil and Kim and I thought that you were kidding... I also remember sneaking you and Conrad around. Your Dad didn't want you dating, so we hid you two for so long. I hated doing that, but we did it because we loved you and wanted you to be happy.

I hope you are happy wherever you are now. I miss your innocence, and I wish I had been able to share in it. I don't know why I grew up so much faster than you...

Nerd Herd Forever!!!

Hey, You, the one giving me butterflies...

I want to lock you up in my closet, when no one's around
I want to put your hand in my pocket, because you're allowed
I want to drive you into the corner, and kiss you without a sound
I want to stay this way forever, I'll say it loud
Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me, Baby, Baby

I can make you feel all better, just take it in
And I can show you all the places, you've never been
And I can make you say everything, that you never said
And I will let you do anything, again and again
Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me, Baby, Baby

- Avril Lavigne 'Hot'

#22 - X365

Rhonda C. - I am so proud of you!

You have taken a HUGE step in your life. You (finally) left that comfort zone, I never really actually thought you would. You are so much braver and stronger than you realize. Girl, this is just your beginning. Now the fun begins. You are stepping into a world that is larger than the 10 X 15 pen that they kept you in. :-)

You have the patience and tolerance of a saint. I am not sure how you managed to maintain your composure most days... I would have snapped many, many times if I had been treated like you were. You are loyal and true to a fault. You stick with something for the long haul and I am happy that you were able to see that this time was the last time.

NEVER AGAIN will they be able to fuck you over. Because you and your tall shoes are walking away to greener pastures. (and we all know that with the right shoes, ANYTHING is possible) :-)

#21 - X365

All Veterans - past, present and future - Today is your day. Everyone who has the ability to express themselves, should be expressing gratitude and love to the men and women who have given their lives in the hope that their effort will lead to freedom for all.

War sucks, fighting sucks, and I am not pro-war, but I do know a few people in the military and I am pro-people. Thank you for your efforts in making this world a better place. To those who have gone to battle and not come back home, you are not forgotten and you never will be. Thank you for everything you were able to do. You did not die in vain. Someday, there will be peace. I truly belive this. I have to. We all do.

#20 - X360

Peter G. - Tonight is your birthday party. I am ready to learn how to play 'beer pong'. You promised that we would be playing this game... and I am admittedly intrigued!

You are one of the coolest guys I know. We met at work and I have to admit, you do work harder than I do :-)

I love your wife and you have one of the neatest kids around. You and Amber are amazingly cool parents, and I am so excited to hear the news that she is preggers again!!!

Happy Birthday P-Grand-e! You deserve the best and here's to a great night!

Music is My Hot, Hot Sex - CSS (Cansei de Ser Sexy)

From all the drugs the one i like more is music
From all the junks the one i need more is music
From all the boys the one i take home is music
From all the ladies the one i kiss is music (muah!)

Music is my boyfriend
Music is my girlfriend
Music is my dead end
Music is my imaginary friend
Music is my brother
Music is my great-grand-daughter
Music is my sister
Music is my favorite mistress

From all the shit the one i gotta buy is music
From all the jobs the one i choose is music
From all the drinks the one i get drunk off music
From all the bitches the one i wannabe is music

Music is my beach house
Music is my hometown
Music is my kingsize bed
Music is where I meet my friends
Music is my hot hot bath
Music is my hot hot sex
Music is my back rub
Music is where i'd like you to touch

Claro-que-sim
Fui escoteira-mirim
Direto da escola, não
Não ia cheirar cola
Nem basquete, pebolim
O que eu gosto não é de graça
O que gosto não é farsa
Tem guitarra, bateria, computador saindo som
Alguns dizem que mais alto que um furacão (rhéum)
Perto dele eu podia sentir
Saía de seu olho e chegava em mim
Sentada do seu lado
Eu queria encostar
Faria o tigela até o sol raiar
Debaixo do lençol
Ele gemia em ré bemol
Fiquei tensa
Mas tava tudo bem
Ele é fodão, mas eu sei que eu sou também

#19 - X365

Jill H. - You were one of the hosts of a birthday party I was lucky enough to attend. We became fast friends that night and I am sad to say, I haven't seen you since. We keep trying to get together, but timing is never right.

We serously need to do some shooters together again. I know where you live, so I will begin stalking you, until we meet again :-)

#18 - X365

Crystal H - We met in Midtown. I was a shopper, you were a fashionista, and we were a match made in shopping heaven. You are my favorite personal shopper. You talk me into things that I would never think of and you always make sure that my ass looks fantastic before I pay for anything. :-)

I am filled with glee for your pending nuptials. I am so happy that you have found the man of your dreams. Although, I do miss you stopping at the care desk and regaling me with stories of your wild and crazy sexy single gal days. :-)

I wish you and he many happy days (and especially nights) together.

#17 - X365

Mitch E. - You are an asshole!

You broke my best friend's heart. You stole money from her, and you tried to steal her heart. I cannot believe that you have found another girl to care for you! I would say that you ruined everything in her life from her video rental accounts in the city, to her friendships that you tried to cut her off from, but that would be giving you power that you do not deserve.

I know that karma is going to be a real bitch when it catches up with you. You never deserved her, and I know that her life is a MILLION times better without you. You were the greasiest kind of guy, because you looked like a decent person. You were beyond deceptive and I know that you will regret losing her, if you haven't already.

Just pay her back already, so I don't have to kick your ass. And then you can crawl back into the hole where you belong, THANKS A BUNCH!

Homesick

Damn it!!! Why do I subject myself torepeated veiwings of Garden State? I get so Homesick and sad and plain old weepy every time I watch this darn movie.

Blargh!

Plus, now I'll have to listen to the soundtrack for the next week...

#16 - X365

The Cute Guy Who I Danced With at the Modest Mouse Concert - You were cute, and I think you were a little bit high (You smelled kinda like someone who just smoked a bowl), but you saw how excited I got when Modest Mouse played 'Float on', and you grabbed my hand and we rocked out together. It was awesome, and by far one of the highlights of my night. You inspired me to get a little high with my friends later that night.

You were cute though :-) If you happen to read this, Call me sometime!

Modest Mouse - Float On

#15 - X365

Laurel U. - I used to work with you for the evil corporation. When I started the new job, I was so excited that you were there! You are like the cool Mom that everyone needs. You have the advice and support like a regular Mom, plus, you rock it out like the cool Mom down the block.

I adore sharing my life with you and could not imagine a better way to spend my lunches than talking with you. You and Deb are going to lead me down the wrong path, but it will be a fun path nonetheless :-)

A Midsummer Night's Dream

I am saying up past my bedtime tonight to watch the 1935 black and white version of Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream. I love James Cagney in this movie as Bottom the Weaver.

I am a sucker for TCM. Why don't they make men like they used to? Where are the James Cagney's and William Holden's and Humphrey Bogart's in my life? Sigh!

#14 - X365

Jody L. - You were always really nice to me. I was a fat kid, and you were friends with the super popular kids, but you always had something nice to say to me.

Thank you for being a great example of what kids can be like. I see on Facebook that you have a child of your own now. I hope that you are able to pass that amazing feature on to Your new son. P.S. - I hear that he is a beautiful baby and I cannot wait for the pictures!

#13 - X365

Tara D. - You and I met in Kindergarten. I'm sure that we ate paste together, I mean we did all other kinds of troublesome things, why not eating glue?

You are one of my oldest and dearest friends and I have all kinds of dirt to dish here, but because that goes both ways (and you like to leave the occasional comment or two here) I will leave the stories to a minimum.

You have been a great friend. You hardly ever judge me and my choices in life, even when you know that they are poor ones. You are such a good friend, you are often ready to make those poor choices with me. :-) I have fond memories of Lafleche, Willow Bunch, Kim's Grandma's House, The Chuckwagon, New Moon Cafe, among other places... They are fuzzy memories, but fond ones, nonetheless!

The best though, has to be the way you host a first class soiree! I am sad to miss the Boxing Day party this year. I'm sure that you will save me some chocolate dipped strawberries.

You could FedEx me some... :-) That would be better than that fuzzy throw blanket I asked you to get me for Christmas!!!!

#12 - X365

Curtis D. - There are few things in this world as great as being up late, drinking beer and watching our favorite hottie, Jennifer Hedger, on SportsCenter, with you. You have been a formidable host for the last few months and I am so thankful for your friendship.

I may or may not have hit on you in the past (it would have been in our wild and crazy youth and only after copious amounts of alcohol were imbibed) but it's only because you are so damn hot!!! I could not have asked for a better mate for my best friend, nor a better dad to my little niece.

Thank you for taking good care of us all. I hope you are having fun on your trip! Come back home safe and sound.

I must really, really like them a lot...

People, it's 4:16 AM, on my day off, and I am awake because I drove my roommates to the airport at 3:30 this morning. Those lucky kids are flying to Miami this morning to get onto a cruise ship and sail the Caribbean for a week. I am so Jealous!!!!!

So now, I am awake and wondering what to do with myself today.

EDIT (12:14 PM): Ok, I cleaned the house and vacuumed and washed the dishes... now what? I think it's time for a nap. Anyone wanna come over and snuggle? :-)

#11 - X365

Nicholas F. - I have had a major crush on you for a very long time (is 2 weeks a long time?) :-)Really though, kidding aside, our chance meting in a lunch room led to one of the most intense afternoons of texting that I have ever encountered :-) You filled my Inbox twice! You and Kirstyn were killing my battery that day, but it was definitely worth it!



Then there was our fateful Sunday afternoon, where you went home sick and I took over for you at Traffic... The rest, as they say, is history. I have had more fun in these last three weeks with you, than I have had in a very long time. You are going to be very hard to replace. I am not qualified to fill your size 13 shoes. Those are really big! :-) Can I call you at 5AM to come and help me out when I am COMPLETLY lost and have no idea what to do? Please?! Pretty Please!?!



You love your karaoke, and I can barely carry a tune, but we still had a good time singing our hearts out that night. When you say "Candy...Doin' it for the children" or we sing the Gummy Bear song, you can make me laugh. There is no one else that I will do the Gummy Bear dance for other than you.



I really hope that you will keep in touch and we will still spend time together. You are an amazing baker, and I definitely think that we should make the oatmeal raisin cookies at your place some day really soon.