Thursday, November 01, 2007
#11 - X365
Then there was our fateful Sunday afternoon, where you went home sick and I took over for you at Traffic... The rest, as they say, is history. I have had more fun in these last three weeks with you, than I have had in a very long time. You are going to be very hard to replace. I am not qualified to fill your size 13 shoes. Those are really big! :-) Can I call you at 5AM to come and help me out when I am COMPLETLY lost and have no idea what to do? Please?! Pretty Please!?!
You love your karaoke, and I can barely carry a tune, but we still had a good time singing our hearts out that night. When you say "Candy...Doin' it for the children" or we sing the Gummy Bear song, you can make me laugh. There is no one else that I will do the Gummy Bear dance for other than you.
I really hope that you will keep in touch and we will still spend time together. You are an amazing baker, and I definitely think that we should make the oatmeal raisin cookies at your place some day really soon.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
This is what I did today!!!

(Aren't we adorable?)
#10 - X365
You are one of the reasons why I love my part-time job. You are full of stories and experiences that I can appreciate and enjoy. Last Christmas, we hung out after work, you, me and E.H., and it was a night filled with fantastic music, drinks, and amazing conversation (My three favorite things). You are there to listen, when I need some good advice, you are there to talk when I need to listen to someone else, and you are there to go out and distract me in the best ways possible.
You are a talented filmmaker, and I look forward to your big screen debut. I know that someday soon, I will be in line to see a PCP Production at the cineplex and I will think back to how we used to "touch some butts" and do some "butt touchin" and wonder how many casting couches you will have people sleep on to get where you are going to. :-)
Much love and stuff,
Tracey.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
#9 - X365
You practically lived with me that summer in the Green House. That's why we were so good together in Saskatoon at first. We were perfect for each other. We both wanted a good time, and each made sure that the other was keeping entertained. I did not realize how many places served alcohol when you are driving from Assiniboia to Saskatoon. I will never forget the night we pulled over on the highway to get out of the car and watch the northern lights shining, and people kept stopping to see if we were alright.
I miss your enthusiasm and your willingness to to help a friend out. You seemed really happy the last time we talked, and I hope that your life keeps getting better and better. Love You Girl!
Monday, October 29, 2007
#8 - X365
You understand my fascination with Engineers, my obsession with Grey's and my new love of Pies and Pie Makers. You are there with a sympathetic ear, a pot of tea and girly movies when I need them. You are also the reason that I have been kicking ass (and losing mine) at the gym.
I don't think you hear it often enough, but Girl, you ROCK! I know that you are having a rough time, but you will make it and I am here to do your bidding and be at your beck and call. So Call Me! I love you and Mr. B and little Miss B. too!
Whoots to late nights!
I need to find a costume!!! I have had some great ideas, (and a few stinkers too) but of course, I wait until the last moment and then run out of time... I suck. I know. :-)
Any ideas out there?
Sunday, October 28, 2007
#7 - X365
You probably think that blogging is a waste of the written word, and therefore, you will never see this post, but you are the reason that I feel like a Scholastic failure. You set an extremely high standard and I reached it in Grade 10. But when Grade 12 rolled around, I was too busy being cool (and Drunk) to really take notice of what you were trying to get me to achieve.
I apologise for not reaching the heights you wanted for me. I wanted them too. Now I am struggling to find my way back there. I regret not believing in you the way you believed in us.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
#6 - X365
That was a decision I will NEVER regret. I will always remember our late night talk where I declared that only 2% of the guys in my life were decent human beings, and that you were that 2%... I was really happy that you and Bonnie got together. I know that she is the Soulmate that you truly deserve. I was so sad when I heard about Zachary. I wish that I could have been there for you in some way. I know that people come together and grow apart, it's only human nature, but I wish we had stayed close. You were a bright spot in a dark winter.
I wish you and her a lifetime of happiness and I want you to make a ton of babies together. You are a FANTASTIC Dad, and I know that you will have the chance again.
Friday, October 26, 2007
It's quiet here in Marshmallow land
Poop!
The only bright spot (pun intended) in this weekend is the FANTASTICALLY large full moon that is shining through my front window right at this moment. I am so in love with the moon. Today at work, Paul said that all the women in the world get more amorous during Full Moons... I wonder if that is true? Hmmm... He might have been making it up, but if I was with someone special right now, it would take less than a half a glass of wine to do the trick. (That might not be just because of the moon though :-)
#5 - X365
Let's have some cold Pizza, eat some "expired" Rolo cake and rehash some old times, heck, let's just get in the car and road trip to someplace new and have another adventure! I miss your laugh. You have a genuine laugh that makes me smile every time I hear it. Call me and we can cause trouble together once again!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
#4 - X365
You were sweet to let me, an annoying little kid, up into your treehouse and play with you. I have some great memories of playing up there. I remember standing on my fence yelling across the alley to you and your brother, "Boys, come and play with me!" and you two would. You included me more than I probably deserved.
I think you are married, and you have kids now, and I hope that they get an awesome treehouse like the one that you used to have :-)
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
#3 - X365
For some reason, your validation was so important to me in High School, that I thought that I was an absolute loser because we didn't ever hang out. I acted like I was too cool to give a damn, but I really just wanted to be your friend. I look back now and I wonder why you didn't like me. We never really knew enough about each other to hate the other one, so why did we never talk? I didn't want to be your best friend, or have sleepovers and braid your hair, but I am sure that we could have at least talked to each other... I am realizing now that being petty and rude just for the sake of being petty and rude is really stupid and I want you to kow that if you ever read this, please add me so we can talk. Maybe we can't be friends, but I do want to be friendly.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
#2 - X365
Here's to many many more Movie and Beer nights, (Not in that necessarily in that order!)
Monday, October 22, 2007
New Beginnings - New Promises - New Commitment
Here it is! The first of a whole year's worth of blog love, blog lust, blog like and even a little blog dislike to a few. This is my first of:
X - 365
Kim D. - You have been a friend since grade 1. Sometimes you were my best friend, sometimes you have been my worst enemy...(You know the couch and the boy that I speak of...), but there wasn't anything that could keep us apart for longer than a couple of weeks. I forgive you for suckering me out of gas money to Moose Jaw every time we went to the movies in High School...consider that Karmic payback for the movie in with Sheldon R. in Rockglen where we sat behind you two during your date!
I feel like a huge dork now, because I am depending so heavily on you right now. You make light of our situation, but I am really sorry for any burdens that I am placing on you. I hope that you know that I love you. You have turned into a beautiful, strong woman, a fantastic Mom and a loving wife. I want your family to continue to grow and prosper.
(But I swear, if you EVER become like Jon and Kate Plus Eight, I am so out! I will not change eight sets of diapers... you are on your own girl! :-)
Friday, October 19, 2007
Guess what I did last night?
Thank Goodness I didn't tape songs off of the radio... Do you remember doing that as a kid?
We actually made a radio station and played songs and DJ'ed our own programes. It was fun. I can still remember Carmody and Lisa and I making the shows for WFUZ.
"W-Fuzz, 'chhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Happy Halloween!

Monday, October 15, 2007
My official coming out.
Hello. My name is Tracey Quiring. I am a blogger.
Phew!
That was easy!
I grew up in a small town in Southern Saskatchewan, I am the oldest of five kids, I have an incredible love for music, movies, books, and my friends are VERY important in my life. I like the color blue, I love hot wings and I have a hard time turning down Ice Cream...
I fall in like easily, but love is a tricky subject for me. I watch too much tv and I like to drive. I hate the gym, but I like the way losing weight feels. I like chocolate milk, but I don't like fudgesicles that much. I can't tell the difference between Pepsi and Coke, but I believe that some people can.
I wish that I knew if God was real. I want to believe that he is out there somewhere, but lately when I talk to him, he hasn't been talking back. This scares me. More than it probably should.
I know what I want, but I'm not sure how to get there. I have a few ideas and it will be fun trying them out. We'll see where I get to. You can come along for the adventure if you want to.
I want to be a little bit more confident. But I never want to be arrogant. Let me know if I start to get that way.
I like our talks on the internet, but I am tired of being the_yecart. Not that she is a bad person. She just gets the credit for being this really cool internet chick, when I do all of the work. By the way, Yecart is Tracey spelled backwards... Pretty smart, eh?
I hope that this makes little to no difference to those of you who read this blog. I am still the same chickie. I just am being a little bit braver, and a little bit bolder. Baby steps to bringing the true Grrrl inside of me out into this world.
Thank you for sticking around here with me. I really appreciate it more than you know.
Love,
Tracey.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Strange and Beautiful - Aqualung
Dedicated to the Person who gives me Butterflies... Whoever he may be!
Friday, October 12, 2007
The problem with blogging is...
I guess I need to stop "lurking" on my own blog... Maybe soon :-)
It's currently 3:19am, and I have almost been up for 24 hours straight. I woke up at 3:45 am on Thursday morning to go to work at GC. I've started in Traffic now. CRAZY!!! But, now it's nearly a whole day later, and I am still up. I am a mess!
I would have gone to bed way before, but first, I had to see Gray's Anatomy at 10, then I facebooked and burned a copy of Knocked Up (actually Kim burned it, I was just at the computer while the program ran), then I had to watch the movie, because I had to... Stop questioning my reasons...
Then finally, I just opened my Bloglines, and saw a Major backload of files. i guess I should check it more than once a week :-)
Monday, October 08, 2007
Discussion tonight During The Hour...
Dude Roommate - Hey, isn't this the show with that George Stroumboulopoulos guy...?
Me - Yeah, it's The Hour. You know, George is my Boyfriend.
Dude Roommate - No, I did not know that (stifles a laugh).
Me - I just got an amazing Idea! I will change my name to Stroumboulopoulos! I mean, if I have to change my name, why go back to the old one?
Dude Roommate - Yeah, I mean, I would even change my name to Stroumboulopoulos if I could...
Me - That would be the best $200 I ever spent!!!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
It's Wednesday Night, 11:59 pm and I'm...
I am the owner of a car now. It all happened so fast. I am happy to have the car and not to have to ride the bus for 4 hours a day. (You heard right, I have a 2 hour commute each way) But the thing is, with this car, it's a little bit of further independence. It's another step towards the finalization, separation and dissolution of my relationship. I am scared and at the same time, LOVING it. I am, each day, re-inventing who I am and what I am capable of.
As you have probably read, I've had a great few days, filled with old and new friends, laughter and fun. This is still a little overshadowed by my fears of the future... When does it become ok to let go of the fear completely? Or can you even do that?
There was a bad thing too this week though...
I had butterflies.
I won't tell you when or why. At least not yet. It was a scary thing when I realized that I was having butterflies and that they were directed towards a particular event.
The Eagles of Death Metal are rocking the butterflies away, but not fast enough... Maybe a solid 45 minutes on the elliptical will get rid of those fuckers!
Two movies in one week?!?
That Rob Zombie sure knows how to shoot a movie! Super awesome camera angles, the music was fantastic and, the best part... I got to sit between Paul and Darby. They protected me from the scary parts. Although Darby did try to scare me a couple of times too...
I got back at him though, I made him drive me home :-)
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Oh, and since I almost forgot...
It was nearly perfect.
Thanks for making me go Michelle!
Who gave this girl a F-ing Credit card?!?!?!
ok, ok, maybe it wasn't the donations... It could have been the shopping that I did for all of my HOT dates this week (!!!) I needed new shoes, (4 pairs, 2 of which have been discribed as 'Fuck Me Heels'), and some hot new jeans, (they were only $19, how could I say no?), and 4 new tops, (I did borrow a 5th one that I wore last night and I looked freaking awesome!!!), but I know that it was donating to that worthy cause, KICK ASS MUSIC, that pushed me over the financial edge this week.
Ya, it had to be the radio pledges... Go Donate Right Now!
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Single...and loving it?
At the new job, there is a guy that is super friendly. Genuinely great guy. I can see myself being friends with this guy for years to come. He works the same shift as I do and we've talked a bit about life type things, but nothing really heavy or "deep". He's come into the music store before, and now that we are friendly, he's going to be expecting discounts... That means trouble, right? :-)
Anyway, earlier today, I gave him my cell number to send me a text to remind me to order him a cd. He sent me a message tonight while I was coming home on the bus. We sent 24 messages back and forth. This is GREAT, right? Nothing like a new guy who could turn into something fun and exciting, right... Except, I find out that he's 17. I'm nearly old enough to be his mother for Christ's sake! Alright, maybe not his mother, but he is the same age as my youngest brother.
Why me? It gets good, and then Poof! Fucked up again! ;-)
It made me laugh. Nothing like a high school senior to make a gal feel great!
Thursday, September 06, 2007
A Place Called Home - Kim Richie
Anyone who looks at me
Knows I am just a rolling stone
Never landing anyplace to call my own
To call my own
Well, it seems like so long ago
But it really ain't you know
I started out a crazy kid
Miracle I made it through the things I did
The things I did
Someday I'll go where there ain't no rain or snow
‘Til then, I travel alone
And I make my bed with the stars above my head
And dream of a place called home
I had a chance to settle down
Get a job and live in town
Work in some old factory
I never liked the foreman standing over me
Over me
Oh I’d rather walk a winding road
Rather know the things I know
See the world with my own eyes
No regrets, no looking back, no goodbyes
No goodbyes
Someday I'll go where there ain't no rain or snow
‘Til then, I travel alone
And I make my bed with the stars above my head
And I dream of a place called home
Friday, August 31, 2007
I'm Not Stupid
This made me smile and laugh out loud. Tori Amos' verdict on the Lindsay Lohan troubles earlier this summer. The second half is part of a song called winter, but unfortunately it cuts off half way through...
Here are the lyrics:
“Just a little chat
I need to have
When I was 21 do you think
I had a bag of cocaine
in my car?
If I did - if I did
You’d never know it
because it would have been hidden
I’m not stupid.
But why are so many 21-year old millionaires so stupid?
Stupid and cute.
But stupid - I don’t know.
Let’s just say
When I was 26 (or seven - or eight)
And I was a billionairess
What would I have done?
Many naughty things.
Many, many, many naughty things.
But I would have had a DRIVER!
‘Cuz I’m not stupid, no.
I’m not stupid, no.
Not THAT stupid anyway
‘Cuz if I had been naughty
(I like being naughty)
But I haven’t been caught so far
and I am almost 44
44
And I’ve done many,
many, many, many, many bad things.
They are hidden inside my *mmm - mmm*
Inside my *mmm - mmm*
So there’s no record or no fingerprints on it
‘Cuz I’m not stupid
‘Cuz I’m not stupid
No, not stupid!”
Sunday, August 26, 2007
What makes me happy?
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Still Overwhelmed...when can I be simply whelmed?
I've been sorting through six years of
Plus, the sheer VOLUME of everything is overwhelming. I have boxes and boxes of books, cd's dvd's, clothes, dishes, towels, everything! This sucks! Terri, if you are free tomorrow, I would love your expertise!!! :-)
Thanks to those who have sent out love and goodness my way. It is appreciated more than I can express right now! Especially, Kim, Becky, and Tara. You three are amazing, and if I forget to 'take' anything, I know that you will grab it before the door closes! :-) Thanks for being here.
I've gotta get back to my boxes, so I'll see you later!
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Trouble in the hen house
I might be tomorrow. But not today.
My husband of five years has decided that he doesn't love me any more and he wants me out. If I had wanted to get thrown out, I would have done something fun, you know, had an affair with a tall handsome stranger, or something equally nasty.
I am really confused, hurt, scared, angry, embarrassed, ashamed, sick, and shocked. I am walking around in a haze. This doesn't happen to me. What did I do to deserve this?
I know what I did. I changed. I grew up. He changed too. People do. It's a normal thing, I guess. I was 21 when we met and married. I'm 27 now. I have opinions and demands and they don't always correspond to his. He said that we just don't have enough in common and he "doesn't love me enough to try anymore". It hurts to relive the conversations we've had these last two days. It hurts, but it feels better the more I talk about it.
I've turned the comments off for this post. I'm not writing this, to get comments that say anything to me about how I'll be ok, or that this is all for the best. This post is for me. Today, August 9, 2007, My marriage ended. And I'm not ok today.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
One word at a time
1. Where is your cell phone? Purse
2. Your husband? Work
3. Your hair? Towel
4. Your mother? Assiniboia
5. Your father? Ditto
7. Your dream last night? Nader
8. Your favorite drink? Slurpee
9. Your dream car? Beemer
10. The room you're in? Living
11. Your ex? Which1
12. Your fears? Many
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Happy
14. Who did you hang out with last night? Alone
15. What you're not? Rich
16. Muffins? Bran
17. One of your wish list items? House
18. Where you grew up? Assiniboia
19. The last thing you did? Lunch
20. What are you wearing? Clothes
21. Your TV? On
22. Your pet? Multiple
23. Your computer? Fantastic
24. Your life? Crazy
25. Your mood? Satisfied
26. Missing? Motivation
27. What are you thinking about right now? Cleaning
28. Your car? Accent
29. Your work? Part-time
30. Your summer? Busy
31. Your relationship status? Married
32. Tomorrow? Zoo
33. When is the last time you laughed? Yesterday
34. Last time you cried? Sunday
35. School? Someday
Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's
Monday, July 30, 2007
"I'd do that for a Dollar!"
Eric has been heard saying his new catchphrase already. I like it! Let's hope it does catch on! Poor Nick, He doesn't know that he's on his way out the door... Danielle is involved in the plan and it's killing her. She has an ugly sounding cry on the feeds. I';m not sure if she's going to have a boyfriend when this game is finished....
I've got to get back to my regularly scheduled melting now. See you all later!
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Fat or Phat?
I digress, anyhoo, I found this pleasantness staring back at me from my bloglines this morning. Manolo, of the shoe blog fame, has recruited a couple of Grrrls to blog under the heading Manolo for the Big Girl!
This is a huge leap (pun intended) for us larger than life gals who still read Vogue every month and dream of wearing Haute Couture. I love me some pretty clothes and in a market like Saskatoon where the fat girls can't shop in the Frakas or Tonic's, we are stuck in the Penningtons and Addition-Elle's of the world. There is no comparison. The fat stores just aren't Phat.
It's not just the clothes, but the way they fit most of the time. They are made for one body shape and us big girls come in a variety of shapes. I am a mix of bigger through the shoulders, but a gal I used to work with had a ghetto booty and needed a bigger size for pants than tops.
Plus, I find that the local fat chick clothes I buy are made out of cheap fabrics, but still cost a lot! I would pay $80 for a blouse if it didn't get all misshapen after the first wash. (and it's not me, I am meticulous about washing my things with major care. I have so few nice things, I want them to stay nice.)
All this is moot once I get all hot this winter while being a gym bunny. I will walk into Manhattan Casuals and buy some totally skanky outfit and it will be a size 8!!! Yeah!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Here's some Geography fun!
Go here to play. There are varying levels of hardness. I got the medium set in 6minutes 34 seconds. Post your scores in the comments to share! Best scores get a prize! (No cheating!!!)
I is Spoiled!!!
Monday, July 23, 2007
It took less than 6 hours. That's all I can say.
On Friday night, I went with Becky to the book party at McnallyRobinson. That was amazing crazy fun! Huge kudos to everyone there who worked so hard to set that night up! I loved every minute! I just wish that we'd been able to see more. The place was packed and you could hardly move, let alone get to everything they had set up. There was a Sorting Hat, a Department of Magical Artifacts, a Pensive, Professor Trelawny's Tower, The Grave of Tom Riddle, The Forbidden Forest, and my favorite, Hogsmeade Market.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
What to do if it's hot outside...
At least that's what I've done these last few days. I'm not going to complain about the weather, because that's just not my style. I'm not a big complainer.
HA HA HA!!!
I got back from Shawna's Book Club tonight. The next book for the group is A Short History of Tractors in Ukrainian by Marina Lewycka.
We discussed Kim Edwards' book The Memory Keeper's Daughter. I still don't think it's a great book, It's a good one. I wouldn't discourage anyone from checking it out.
In the last week, I've read three books. I'm running out of material ;-) Becky, I'll be over to raid your shelves again soon if this keeps up! I also tore through Season one of Nip/Tuck. Paul from work loaned it to me. He and Johnny both were raving about the series, so I caved and borrowed it. I have the second season waiting for me to pick it up. There are apparently some major plot spoilers online, so I have avoided any Nip/Tuck websites. Thanks to watching The View last year. all I know is that Rosie O'Donnell shows up at one point and has a recurring role. I wouldn't consider that a spoiler per se.
Does anyone have any suggestions for summer reads? Throw them out there and let a girl know what to buy next!
Friday, July 13, 2007
Friday the 13th, eh?
It's so hot in my house, I keep tossing and turning and trying to lay directly in the path of the fan, but so is my husband, and I think he's won this round. I'm sleeping on the chesterfield tonight. If you have central air, and you are reading this, can I come for a sleepover?
I just finished a book called The Memory Keeper's Daughter, by Kim Edwards. I'm not sure what to make of it. It was not my cup of tea entirely, but I still enjoyed it. There were moments when I thought that I might not finish it, but then it would perk back up and I'd be hooked for another couple of chapters. I'd say it's a good library book, or a borrower, but I wouldn't rush out and buy a copy if I were you.
Think happy thoughts for me today. I'm ripping my living room apart in my "cleaning frenzy". I've gone through every space in our house, and I've either tossed things out, Freecycled them, or boxed them up and made tons of space for us to move around again. It feels good to have clutter free as a part of my vocabulary again. I'm nowhere near finished this belated Spring cleaning yet, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel (and no, it's not just a freight train heading my way...for all you Metallica fans out there)
Monday, July 02, 2007
I wish I had access to one of these!

Does this store look familliar? Everyone's favorite Kwik stop has become a reality... For a while at least! There are eleven 7-eleven stores in the States that have transformed to Kwik-e-Marts.
Complete with Jasper in the freezers, they have all of your favorite Simpson's treats too!
Any one want a Buzz Cola?
Monday, June 25, 2007
Home and back again.
I took the "shortcut" through Regina, and picked up my Grandma. The "shortcut" actually adds almost two full hours to the trip. And Remember, I don't have air conditioning in my beast of a car!!
It was a great weekend. Tara and I went to the Grand village of Wood Mountain on Saturday afternoon. It's about 45-50 miles from Assiniboia, so it's a nice day trip. We went to see an old friend of mine, Jody. She has opened the JH Quarter Circle Restaurant in Wood Mountain. The food was great, and the visit was, in my humble opinion, far too short.
Jody, if you read this, I am so happy to have seen you again. I think of you often. We had such good times together. (No one could cause trouble together like you and I did!) I am very proud of what you have done, and I will defend you until I die. I love you girl, and I meant what I said about meeting more often. It's not going to be another three years before I give you one of my famous hugs!!!
In some sad news, last night, my In-laws Pomeranian puppy died. Her name was Britney Lynn Spears (don't ask why she was named that) and she was truly loved by Mom and Dad. Britney is already missed terribly and she leaves a hole in the family that will never be replaced. She was tiny, and cute, and is in doggy heaven.

Friday, June 15, 2007
Revealed!!! The ending to the Harry Potter book 7!


I never would have guessed that this is how it all wraps up. I'm still going to read the whole book though :-)
EDIT: June 17, 2007 - Apparently some people think that I'm really a lame arse, and that I would post the real book spoiler. First of all, I would probably be sued by Ms. Rowling and at the very least heavily questioned on how I received such information. Second, I usually warn before I spoil an ending, and post it in white or something sneaky like that. Not everyone loves spoilers and I am careful how I present such information. :-)
To those of you who were either reluctant to read the link, or most specifically, to the person who sent me a mean email about this... It's not real. It's a joke, based on the Sopranos ending. It was supposed to be all in good fun.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Tracey and Tara doing the facebook thing
This is how technology brings people together!
Or how you know that you need an Intervention.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
The Soprano's Finale
Major series spoiler below: Via HBO comment thread: (Highlight to read)
That horrendous sound you just heard was a couple million "Sopranos" fans, throwing shoes at their TVs and frantically dialing their cable or satellite providers screaming about how they'd lost the signal in the pivotal last minute of the show.
But they didn't. The show was transmitted just as creator David Chase intended. The last five minutes were entrancingly filled with knee-jiggling tension. Tony went to a diner where his wife and son joined him. Daughter Meadow pulled up outside and struggled to parallel park. For someone who'd never seen the show before, it was a mind-numbingly banal scene of a family gathering in an inexpensive restaurant, popping down onion rings.
But for a "Sopranos" fan, every movement seemed to suggest something. A guy took a seat at the counter -- was he there to take out Tony? A guy walked in with A.J. -- was he there to whack Tony's son? Someone walked slowly to the men's room -- would there be a repeat of the famous "Godfather" scene where Michael went to retrieve a gun hidden in a bathroom stall, walked out, shot two men, dropped the gun and left? Meadow struggled with her car -- was someone watching her, gun in hand? Or when she pulled out to try to repark, would she pull into a car accident? Or would she alone be saved by her sad parking skills while the rest of the family was killed in a diner explosion? Viewers came up with a million scenarios, but the one that no one but Chase came up with was...nothing happened.
The episode definitely had its moments, but few of the possibilities viewers had been discussing for weeks came through. How many of these theories below had you heard bounced around in weeks past? None of them happened.
Tony was not whacked. Nor was Carmela, or either of the children.
A.J. did not take over the family to avenge his father.
Adriana did not pop out of Witness Protection or some other spot, still alive.
Paulie did not reveal himself to be a turncoat.
Sil was not secretly working with the feds, and remained on the edge of death in the hospital. He was neither shielding an uninjured Ade, nor wearing a bulletproof vest.
There was no terrorist attack, nothing involving the Middle Eastern men that Christopher had befriended.
Carmela never found out that Tony had indeed had Adriana killed, and she did not leave her marriage.
The Russian from the Pine Barrens did not resurface. Neither did the Canadian Mounties show up, tracking now-deceased Bobby for leaving a bit of his clothes behind when he whacked a guy in a laundromat north of the border.
Melfi's rapist was never punished. She and Tony never made up.
And Tony never spent those final moments with the ducks in his yard, the ducks that were such an important part of the early seasons.
That's not to say that major events didn't go down in the episode. The most major: One of Tony's guys finally, finally whacked Phil Leotardo, as he pulled up in a car with his wife and twin grandbabies. And those who longed to see Phil pay for having Bobby and Sil shot last week got their revenge, as Phil was not only shot, but had his head run over by his SUV, leading a passerby to toss his cookies at the sight.
And one might say that Christopher, Carmela's nephew, made a return of sorts. Tony's crew adopted an orange cat they found lurking around their safe house, a cat who focused his vision on Chris' portrait, wherever it was moved to, and freaked Paulie out big-time.
Meadow seemed to be moving ahead with marriage plans to Patrick Parisi. A.J. announced he wanted to join the army, but Carmela and Tony seemed to distract him with a job on a film.
Tony did manage a final goodbye with Uncle Junior, a tear coming to his eye as he seemed to, perhaps, finally realize that his uncle no longer knew him. And A.J. pulled another typical bonehead A.J. move, accidentally setting his SUV on fire in the woods while making out with his high-school-age girlfriend.
What was most important in this episode, other than the haunted, hunted feeling of the final scene, was that Tony was told that Carlo had flipped, and he's likely to be dragged into court again. The Sopranos crew have discussed before how there's no easy way out of their life -- death or jail are the likely options, with very few mobsters retiring to Boca to sit in the sun. And so perhaps viewers left Tony with the idea that he knows his life is forever not his own, that he'll never be able to stop looking over his shoulder. (Or, to be cynical, maybe viewers left with the idea that David Chase wants to make a movie, and couldn't kill off Tony this soon.)
If Tony was indeed an anti-hero, the show he helmed came to an anticlimax. There's no question fans will be frustrated. Those who've defended the show all along will claim Chase is brilliant, leaving fans to finish the plotlines in their own minds, while those who had other expectations were likely be furious. (Vote here as to whether you found the show's ending frustrating or fascinating.)
Many viewers are already claiming that the show fading to black was because Tony was (silently, offscreen) shot at the same time as Meadow entered the diner -- the black screen popped up as his life was extinguished, is their thinking, reaching back to the first episode of the season, where Bobby and Tony discuss how death can sneak up on you. Not buying it myself, just as I never could buy the argument that Ade didn't die, that Sil somehow miraculously let her crawl safely away.
One thing's for sure: "The Sopranos" rarely gave viewers exactly what they wanted -- the show had its own path, and always trod it without nodding to popular pressure. The series ended the same way.
I couldn't have said it any better!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Certifiable...
I wish I could roller skate. I wish I had neon orange light streaking from behind me every where I went. I wish that my life were a cheesy 80's musical.
Well....on second thought, maybe not.
BTW, the most famous review for Xanadu is "In a word, Xana-don't."
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Tara and Kim should appreciate this one...
As I was alphabetizing a display of dvd's, I heard some real gems that took me back to 1997. We had Rob Zombie's greatest hits, Ozzy's Crazy Train, riding in the red mini-van that Tara's parents had, cruising main street and heading out to the Co-op bulk fuel tanks and back, then going to Limerick... Those were the days!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
New Design
This took way too long to do! I really need more html learning!
I'm off to bed. A better post will follow tomorrow, one with actual information and stuff :-)
Monday, May 21, 2007
This chick is Pissy right now!
This makes me very angry! I am always super flexible with my time for other people. Where does that leave me! Nowhere, that's where.
I am going to go to a Power Class tomorrow morning, and work out my frustration there.
Friday, May 18, 2007
SERIOUSLY!
No Wedding!!! Where's Burke!!!
No George in Seattle Grace!!!
Callie wants a baby! George said YES!!!
Alex being a dork and missing his chance!!! (I guess one thing stayed the same tonight)
I have to wait until SEPTEMBER for some answers!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!
No Fair.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
How wild is this tool! I keep browsing the site in different groups and I keep finding people that I knew years ago. I am freaking out over some of these people! It's neat to see what they are doing and who they are becoming!
I like Myspace for the music and I like Facebook for the people! {I think I spend too much time online :-P}
Do you want to be my online friend?
My Mental age is 39! Ugh I'm old!
[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calendar.
[x] I own more than one credit card.
[x] I know how to change the oil in my car.
[x] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself
[x] sometimes I think politics are exciting.
[x] I know how to balance a checkbook.
[ ] My parents have better things to say than my friends.
total: 8
[ x] I show up for school/college/work every day early. (note: Now I do, but I NEVER used to... Right Mr. Cowan?!?!)
[x]always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[x] I've never been suspended.
[x] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[] I have never gotten my room dirty
[] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week.
total: 8
[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another language.
[] When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[x]my parents trust me.
[x] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[x] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.
[x] I remember to feed my pets.
total: 9
[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[x] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[x] The people at Starbucks know me by name.
[ ] my favorite kind of food is take out.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.
total: 7
[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[x] I have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I have more bills than I can pay.
[] All my friends are older than I am.
[] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.
Total:7
Add up all the numbers and repost this as: "My Mental age is __"
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Jerry Falwell...RIP, I guess. (I Mean, That's What Jesus Would Do!)
I had a few reactions go through my head immediately. First I was almost happy, then as soon as that thought came, I was horrified by it and shamed that I would be so rude! I felt for his family and friends, not his politics or any of that, but for the people he hugged goodnight and who would miss him like crazy.
Other Bloggers that I have read in the last day have not been split. One of my favorite posts is from Bitch Ph.D. She was a little Snarky (in her bitchy way) and it was a good chuckle and all, but I still feel kinda bad.
He and I may not have been on the same page, but he was still a person who Jesus would have loved. Jerry had flaws and so do I. All I can hope for is that he has found his eternal peace.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Friendly Neighbour Hood Spider Man!
As a fan of the Spider dude franchise, it was a great movie! The special effects were amazing, the fight/action sequences were spectacular and the cast was well chosen. There was only one problem... The script was too rushed. There was little character development for some of the side characters, and there were too many "coincidences".
For example, Pete and MJ just happen to be in the woods, and miss seeing a HUGE meteor that contains the black ooze dude, Venom. In the comics, MJ's Astronaut boyfriend brings Venom back on his rocket ship (unknown to him, of course). Also, the Eddie character is snubbed, what, like twice, by Peter Parker, and he ends up HATING Peter so much that he wishes him dead? Meh, I'm being EXTREMELY picky. It was a great movie, and if you liked either one of the first Spidey movies, you'll like this one too!
On the Downside, I was not at home to see the Sopranos, so NO SPOILERS!!! Although, I kinda think I know what happened... People around me can't keep secrets that well :-(
Finally!
My Husband, in his infinite wisdom, decided to literally rip our computer apart and install both XP and Windows 98. This took a week to do because it was trial and error to get the configuration right. I know very little about hardware issues so the two separate hard drives were Greek to me!
I am happy that he did it though now, because I can play my old DOS computer games again! (XP does something to dos programs, and blocks them from running), Plus he has somehow sped up our internet connection.
The down side... In a week of not checking, I had over 200 emails in two accounts that I had to deal with and my poor Neopet was STARVING! :-)
Friday, May 04, 2007
I need a nap now!

The Ladies in the class are fantastic! They are so supportive and encouraging. I still stumble over the moves and the steps, and they are really great about helping me stay encouraged.
Here's to one more down, and ten thousand four hundred to go! (4 times a week x 52 weeks x 50 years)

Thursday, May 03, 2007
Question?
It starts with a Feist song!
Monday, April 30, 2007
For Tara
"I think it's time you up date your blog, I'm tired of reading about the soprano's!!!"
Well, I think that was her giving me shit... I guess.
I have been too busy having a life to blog about it. For starters, Easter kinda sucked. Instead of having the traditional family dinner with ham or turkey, Handsome Hubby and I had, Get ready for it, KFC. You heard me right. KFC. The Colonel made my Easter supper. The really strange thing (to me at least) was that the place was packed with family-type people and loads of peoples picking up things for take-out. But on the up side, I did get to spend the whole day with Hubbie all to myself!!!
Then, the next weekend, my parents were here in the City for the Co-op buyers trade show. I helped them set up the booth on Friday afternoon and had a blast helping out at the show. There were loads of orders placed for my Dad's product and I have a feeling that it will be featured in your local Co-op store soon. :-) Yay Dad!!! There was a cabaret on Sunday night and the band that played was the Canadian 70's supergroup Chilliwack. This had my Dad in his element.
In the early 70's (1972-ish I think), my Dad and some of his friends moved from my small-town hometown, to Downtown Vancouver. Dad and his cousin were in a band called Twitch. Twitch actually recorded a couple of 45's (for those of you who are either young, or simply unfamiliar with vinyl, a 45 is a "single" on a record. They held only two songs, one on each side of the record). Anyhoo, the studio that they were recording in was also being used by both Chilliwack and Nazereth.
Chilliwack had finished a set for the afternoon, and being the 'bigger' band, they had left their amps and drum kit out. Twitch was heading into the studio and had the opportunity to record using that equipment. That is my Dad's claim to fame.
The following weekend was dominated by a visit from my sister Christine. She lives in Lethbridge, and I rarely see her. She has dropped almost 50 pounds since Christmas, and while she looks FANTASTIC, I am just as jealous as I am proud of her. She came for a visit, and to throw a spa party. It went well and everyone had a lot of fun. I was really sad to see her go. I never get to see her enough now that we are older, and I appreciate her. [The sister who lives here in Saskatoon is not really one that I get along with yet, although it is getting better. I love her, but I don't always like her :-) ]
On April 19th, The Husband and I celebrated a strange milestone. I was bored one day while at guest services (like a year ago), and I came across a website that calculated the time elapsed since a certain date. I cannot remember where it was, but I calculated that from the day we went on our first date to April 19 was 2000 days! (Again, further proof that I am a tard.)
I have made it official. Becky and I ARE INDEED joining a gym. We're taking advantage of a two week free membership and then we'll have to fork over some cash. I know that this will be a good thing. I'm gonna get so hot, you are all going to be JEALOUS!!! Oh yeah, all hot and shit!
Tara, is that good enough of an update? Oh and BTW, Tara (and anyone else who is interested), you are a food goddess, so please email me any HEALTHY recipes that are easy to make, and are tasty! On a scale of 1 - 10, one being Craptastic and 10 being Julia Freaking Child, my skill is a four, so keep that in mind. Along with this gym thing, I am going to make a VERY concerted effort to cook better things for both of us to eat. Healthy fuel, healthy bodies, or something lame like that! :-)
Sunday, April 08, 2007
The Sopranos Season six begins to end...
Here are my top 3 answers:
1) My guess: Tony will die. Somehow, I feel a violent and painful ending this way comes. I don't like it, but I think that is what is in store.
2) My Husband's Best Friend Noel's guess: Tony will take over Carmine's territory in New York. Right now this area is being horrifically mis-managed by Phil Leotardo, while Johnny Sack is in the big house.
3) What I would HATE TO SEE: Tony getting busted by the Feds on the RICO case that they have been building for a long time. I would rather see Tony dead than in Jail.
What do you think will be the end of Tony Soprano? Or will it even be an end?
Hoppy Easter!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Rock and/or roll is EXHAUSTING!
That was the most exhausting, and thrilling two weeks of my life!
I met Dallas Green, Patrick Watson, DJ Champion, Karl Wolf, Chris Murphy, Bob Rock, Sass Jordan, and many other people in the Biz.
I have no photos (I thought that it would be tacky to take pics while I was 'on the clock') so I'll just have to bask in the glow of the memories. :-)
One question/comment to the Juno Organizers and to CARAS in general... Why make the host of the show a nominee? There is so much incredible talent in Canada, this year, it made us look Silly to have the awards turn into the Nelly Furtado Show. I mean have someone like Jim Carrey, or Joni Mitchell host. It just seemed like too much Nelly... And I like Nelly!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
CBC's Test The Nation
I scored a Whopping 128. How about you? Take the test at CBC.ca/testthenation
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Tough questions intertwined with Marshmallow Fluff
- The furnace is fixed... It was a broken fan belt. What a fuss over a small rubber hoop!
- I am about to pay off my student loan. It's kind of a scary thought. I mean, it's a good thing, but when it's paid off, and my diploma is still nowhere in sight... what was it all for? My Dad is wanting me to take the last five classes and finish what I started if only to get that piece of paper. I keep putting it off, partially because of the money (but Dad would pay for the tuition), and partially because I don't want to be an administrator... That leads to the question: What DO I want to be?
- I washed the floors today! Be proud of me. I haven't given the floors a complete cleaning (other than spot cleaning when a mess was made) in probably a year! GULP! I mean I moved EVERYTHING and mopped and scrubbed every square inch of flooring.
- Life seems to be getting harder, instead of easier. I am second guessing every move I make lately. Question: If you have to talk yourself into something, should you still do it?
- I have probably fifty candles in my home, and I want to light at least one of them, but I have no Matches!!! This is a big problem right now.
- I want a caesar salad right now. I would give my right arm for a Caesar Salad.
Not a good time to be doing this!!!
At this same time, our furnace quits. I woke up to a house temperature of 12 degrees. Freaking cold! I am wearing two pairs of socks and three shirts! Not even Paula Dean's Cooking was enough to warm me up this morning.
The furnace guy just showed up, but It's not fixed yet...
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Vagina is not a dirty word!

I was chatting with my Vagina, and she was upset that I had not posted more about her. She thinks that I should talk about her, my Vagina, every day.
I told her, Isn't it enough that I know you are there? I mean, look at Paris Hilton's Vagina, or Britney Spears' Vagina. They get enough attention for the rest of the Vaginas in the world.
Vagina, Vagina, Vagina!
Use the word with pride! In fact, I think I will make an effort to say Vagina at least once a day. It is a clinical term. Vagina is not a dirty word!
I used the word ten times. How about you?
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
In a Manner of Speaking
The ONLY good thing about getting up at 5:00am and going to the airport... Tim Hortons in the Terminal!
EDIT: So It was all rush, rush to get there and get him on the plane for 7am... but the darned thing was sitting there for an hour (passengers and baggage loaded) and an hour and a half after they got de-plained... The Husband didn't hit the skies until 11 am!
He did, however like the view as they flew into Pearson. Quote: "It was like there was city EVERYWHERE I looked!"
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
1:38AM
Two questions:
1) What is the cure for this behavior?
2) How did this show get so damn good?
I know that everyone on the planet is in love with it, but SERIOUSLY!
By the way... I asked my husband the other day, "where does the good go?", and he didn't understand the question. Does that constitute grounds for divorce?
Seriously? SERIOUSLY!
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
My fine is $465.60
Here’s how it works: You don’t have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. And NO, it is not PER incident (otherwise, some of us would have totals more than the national debt).
Smoked pot — $10
Did acid — $5
Ever had sex at church — $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you — $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace — $25
Had sex for money — $100
Vandalized something — $20
Had sex on your parents’ bed — $10
Beat up someone — $20
Been jumped — $10
Crossed dressed — $10
Given money to stripper — $25
Been in love with a stripper — $20
Kissed some one who’s name you didn’t know — $0.10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work — $15
Ever drive drunk — $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk — $50
Used toys while having sex — $30
Got drunk, passed out and don’t remember the night before — $20
Went skinny dipping — $5
Had sex in a pool — $20
Kissed someone of the same sex — $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex — $20
Cheated on your significant other — $10
Masturbated — $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend — $20
Done oral — $5
Got oral — $5
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving — $25
Stole something — $10
Had sex with someone in jail — $25
Made a nasty home video — $15
Had a threesome — $50
Had sex in the wild — $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex — $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars — $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older — $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 — $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time — $50
Said you love someone but didn’t mean it — $25
Went streaking — $5
Went streaking in broad daylight — $15
Been arrested — $5
Spent time in jail — $15
Peed in the pool — $0.50
Played spin the bottle — $5
Done something you regret — $20
Had sex with your best friend — $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work — $25
Had anal sex — $80
Lied to your mate — $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good — $25
Tally it up and Title it…”My Fine Is…”
Saturday, February 24, 2007
The Arcade Fire
WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!?! Don't you want your mind blown? :-)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
I disappeared...
Last Thursday saw Meredith of "Grey's Anatomy" drown, and presumably, die. That pretty much sums up what I have done for the last six weeks. I went under. I could see the water above and the water below. I chose to sink.
I have had this self-pity and loathing and hate for myself...and for what reason? I am stumbling through this life, while others are celebrating and cheering their daily victories. I can choose to continue to sink, to drown, or I can choose to come out of this strange dark place.
Why choose to come to the surface? I have friends and family who love me (At least they say they do) But I have been a terrible friend...I was rescued in January by Kimberly, and How do I repay her? I don't call or write or visit in a month! I was loved by Janelle and I ignored her emails. I was comforted by Darren in a time of need, and just today, I beat him up for talking to his ex-boyfriend (who I think he should avoid)...Do I deserve any of these people? (Probably not.)
I am tired of being tired. I am Tired of being in the dark. I am tired of complaining.
I am tired of disappearing. No more.
People, today was Mardi Gras. A celebration of indulgence to counter a period of fasting. My "Lenten preparedness" is going to be slightly different than previous years. I think that I'm going to not cut so much out or abstain during Lent, I'm going to indulge. I will force myself upon people, and come up for air. I will indulge in my baby girl Kailey's smiles, I will take crazy long walks across the bridge with the dog, I will go to Calories for cheesecake with Janelle, and we might eat a whole cake together, but then I will go to the Gym with Becky (please come to the gym with me!!!) and I will make all of those cheesecakes vanish into THIN air!
There is so much more that I have to say, and I will say it. I cannot allow the person I have become to disappear. I like me. I like being opinionated. I like working in a "crappy retail job". I like hating George Bush. I like country music and screamo punk too. I like being who I am and I refuse to disappear.
Fuck That Noise!
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-changes....
Due to some unfortunate personal matters, I may be off-line for a while. I am not going to be at home, so if anyone needs me, please call my cell.
I am not able to speak freely right now, but there are some rough times ahead. I would appreciate any "good thoughts" and support that you could send.
I do thank all of you for everything. I hope to see you all soon. I may make it online, but Tara, you still have to call me!!!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Snow day
It hasn't snowed like this for ever, and I shouldn't say this too loudly... I like it!
I love snowstorms. Travis and I curled up this afternoon and had a nap together. On what 'normal' Thursday can you do such a thing?
The roads suck, but who needs to be out? Stay in, make some cocoa, watch some old movies and snuggle with someone you love (or at least someone who is warm) :-)
HAPPY SNOW DAY EVERYONE!
Friday, January 05, 2007
New Me!
Thursday, January 04, 2007

What does that say?
Happy New Year...or baller.
The holidays came n wizzent witout any fanfare on mah behalf this year.
That is truly sad . Hollaz to the East Side. I wrapped gifts, n baked a few cookies, but I had little, ta no Christmas spirit.
My New Year's Resolizzles. To git out of this funk fo my bling bling! To move into a bigga space n really git ta unpack our chillin' , niggaz, better recognize. I think that if I can bitch mah home, I can rappa mah heezee.
(Does that makes sense?)
Anyhoo, I gots a boatload of books fo` Christmas, n I have already begun ta devour them. First up, Pizzle B . Slap your mutha fuckin self: Playa thoughts on Faith by Anne Lamott.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Happy New Year...or whatever.
That is truly sad. I wrapped gifts, and baked a few cookies, but I had little, to no Christmas spirit.
My New Year's Resolution... To get out of this funk! To move into a bigger space and really get to unpack our things. I think that if I can de-clutter my home, I can de-cluter my head. (Does that make sense?)
Anyhoo, I got a boatload of books for Christmas, and I have already begun to devour them. First up, Plan B: Further thoughts on Faith by Anne Lamott.